Where do I start? HHHHMMM. 0-0

I don't have any idea at all. Am I not thinking? Why I am not thinking?!?! ARGH!
I just hate Philosophy, I really don't appreciate it. Why this kind of subject EXIST?
I haven't learn anything, the thoughts weren't have an exact point. And the textbook that we are using is difficult to understand immediately. The writers of the text were foreign, there were some words I don't understand and new to us students. Why can't the writers use simple words, in order the students or people could understand what they are trying to tell us. Who are to blame for this? The writers? or readers?